From Drowning to Depth: How I Found My Soul’s Purpose in the Darkness

There was a time when I felt like I was drowning. Not in water, but in pain. In confusion.
In the weight of a life that no longer made sense. I had no direction. No compass.
Just a series of heavy days and hard nights. I was disconnected from everything I thought I knew, my dreams, my confidence, my purpose. I felt like I was falling apart, and honestly… a part of me was.

And as I was unraveling, I was also losing people. Relationships I thought were forever began to fade.
Loved ones distanced themselves. Some were taken too soon. It felt like everything I depended on was being stripped away, one layer at a time. And it was so lonely. There were nights I cried until I couldn’t anymore. Days I felt invisible, wondering if anyone could see how deeply I was struggling.
But in that darkness, something held me. Even though I couldn’t see it clearly, I could feel it.

My Spirit Guides were with me.
Whispering strength into my silence.
Guiding me when I didn’t know where to go.
Wrapping me in love when I had nothing left to give myself.

I realize now that they never left.
And that all of it, every ending, every breakdown, was sacred preparation. Eventually, I stopped trying to escape the pain. Instead, I surrendered to it. And like a soul-diver, I swam all the way to the bottom of my being. To the parts of me that had been silenced. To the buried traumas. To the childhood wounds, the fear of being abandoned, the limiting beliefs that kept me playing small. And it was in those depths that I discovered something powerful. I wasn’t broken. I was breaking open. Down there in the darkness, I started gathering tools. Not all at once. But piece by piece. Mindfulness. Energy work. Inner child healing. Shadow work. Channeling. Understanding my own design, why I came here and what I came to do. I returned from the depths with wisdom. Not just for myself, but for others too. Because I knew I didn’t go through all of that to just survive. I went through it to become a guide. A vessel. A reminder.

This is my WHY.

Everyone deserves the chance to heal. To feel joy in their body again. To walk in their purpose. To stop pretending and start becoming. We were never meant to live in survival mode. We were meant to remember who we are. To rise into our truth. To live a life that feels like home. Everything I share now, my offerings, my words, my path, it’s all a reflection of the tools I gathered on my way back up to the surface. And if you’re reading this, maybe you’re ready to start your return too. To support you, I created something to assist you, a free Soul Mastery Guide to help you begin remembering who you are on a soul level. It’s a gentle introduction to your spiritual blueprint through astrology, human design, and numerology.
Because when you know your soul’s design… you walk differently. You move with purpose.

You’re not alone on this journey.
You never were.
Your Spirit Team is with you.
And so am I.

With all my heart,
Latasha Mullen
Soul Mastery Guide